The crazy part is that i know i dont miss you
i really truly miss what i thought we had so frikn bad
like an ache that wont leave…
i vascilate between living without you and and living with the lie you had presented me with
the lesser of three evils because either way i would wind up hurt
never been the lonely type
always been the drinking type
this lonely-ish mixed with drinking has invented a new type
at least for me
i would love to stumble upon in real life the facade we existed in for fake and take residence
i deserve it
and you know you deserve that!
but i digress…
vodka plus emotions = this poem and had i not erased your number i would probably call you, but i erased itr for this very reason because i do not need to give myself something else to regret.
you were enough!
Deana is a host, producer, event planner and writer living in Los Angeles. The Ohio native remembers the day that a relentless depression pushed pen to pad resulting in her first poem. Deana has hosted over 13 shows over the past ten years from charity events, fundraisers, music events and featured poetry shows. She has been performing in the LA area for over 15 years and is considered a trailblazer for women performers, producers of poetry.